Deep thoughts in the deep snow

Today I decided to not go to my classes, I only had two for today and I already read ahead in my books so I already knew what the professor was going to say. So I decided to sleep in and relax for the day. I then decided to drive to the countryside for a walk later in the day. As I was out there in that field alone with the winds and snow, I forgot about all my normal day-to-day worries. I concentrated on the soft crunching of the snow under my boots, and sight of the Sun setting on the horizon and I let my mind wander freely. I don't know why, but as I stood there looking at the Sun set, I thought about what I would do if my parents and siblings were to die suddenly. I have always been close to my family, and now I find myself living in a city that is far away from all of them and I miss them constantly. If they were to die, than I'd be depressed, angry and I think I'd be lost without them.
I then thought of what other people must go through when they lose a loved one. The closest thing I could imagine is a feeling of complete loss that hits you in the bottom of your stomach and gnaws away at all the things that makes a person smile. I thought to myself: Which sibling would I be able to live without? I could not make that decision, each one of them is special to me. Finally I thought that everybody's time on Earth is limited and everybody WILL die, I will die, we ALL will absolutely die.
Just like the today's setting Sun, we all will meet our end, and it will always be ugly it will always be painful, whether by some accident, disease or the slow decay of time. Yet the more I thought of death, the less I feared it. It is one of the most natural things in the world and the only thing that matters is HOW we will be remembered. Will I be remembered? Or will I be forgotten? I then started to walk back to my car, and continue my life.